anonanimal

i wonder how my face read this morning.

pyramid song

beyond exhausted, starving, poor, and still going.

i can see a lot of life in you

i probably shouldn't have worked on 7 films before my own.

film

i wish i were shooting my movie on real film, despite all logic pointing to HD. but theres always next year, and maybe i'll have some exterior locations next time.

no money, no rest, no food

and then i remembered this is why i came. because i love it so much. fuck logic.

dinosaurs!

theres a classic, geeky little spiel by jeff goldblum in jurassic park when he talks about "life finding a way" despite the odds. i always think of this whenever i walk to EICAR and pass by this tree stump, cut by the french. within the first 3 months of my stay here i saw new branches grow and grow from this stump, and earlier this year i found they had been cut down again. its spring now, and its growing new branches and leaves again.

i guess what im trying to say is dr. malcolm was on to something in that cinematic gem. life finds a way, dinosaurs will terrorize us, alan grant will save us all and kick a pterodactyl in the fucking head.

paris

i think i want to judge time as "Before EICAR" and "After EICAR" from now on.

"When were you born?"
"Oh about 24 B.E."
"B.E.?"
"Before EICAR."

this place - its people, my friends - its all just too ridiculous to follow traditional notions of time and space. and i just keep laughing at this mess, at all this failure, as if it's the biggest, most expensive practical joke since the staged moon landing. and i dont furrow my brows at all this either. it really is fun, and i think i'd be completely bored if i had attended some reputable, organized school.