strange

i feel as if i never truly nestle myself into any social setting. i constantly switch back and forth between my own group of friends, drama productions, than film productions. and, as selfish as this sounds, i hate it when i don't participate in one of their productions or get asked to be involved since i've been working on something else.

i realized i've sort of been a lone wolf in regards to film, which is an absolute no-no. films can be done with a small group, but i usually lack even that. i suppose i always opt to do things myself because i know i'll be more satisfied with it and/or can only blame myself if it isn't up to par with what i imagined.

i think it's time i volunteered to help out with other film productions, despite the fact that they believe i don't have any tangible skills. but i figure, this late in the game with graduation so close, it may be too late.

blah.